Corrupted Dreams

Corrupted Dreams

I’m tired but when I sleep my dreams are corrupted. They come out all fragmented, when I’m in them I can see the components that made them but bits are missing, and I’m constantly waiting for it to switch to the next pair of random parts from a big set. I can’t write any more about it now sorry, I’m losing the memories of them now I’m awake. I’ve had this before when I try to sleep off the way I feel, it’s confusing and not very restful but if I get enough of it then it seems to help a bit.

Treatments

Treatments

Currently I am taking the following prescription drugs:
Ramipril 10mg (Hypertension)
Amlodipine 5mg (Hypertension)
Venlafaxine 150mg (Depression/Mental Health)
Mirtazapine 30mg (Depression/Mental Health)
Pregabalin 100mg (Depression/Mental Health)

The Pregabalin is new after having a lot of anxiety about going in to work, yet to see how that works out but going back to doctor in a few weeks for a review. Everything else I have been on for a while now. In the past I have also been on:
Fluoxetine (Depression/Mental Health)
Sertraline (Depression/Mental Health)
Duloxetine (Depression/Mental Health)
Citalopram (Depression/Mental Health) – Not sure if this is right one, think it is but can’t quite remember!

About Me

About Me

A little about me so that this blog makes some sense:

Name: Dave
Age: 30
Gender: Male
Sex: Male
Sexuality: Heterosexual
Religion: Agnostic Antitheist with Atheist leanings
Race: White British
Politics: Currently unsure with current political climate, voted Labour at last election and remain in EU referendum
Occupation: Computer Consultant
Marital Status: Engaged
Location: Manchester, England, UK, EU (for now), Earth
Music: Rock/Metal/Alternative
Body Type: Morbidly Obese
Illnesses: Depression, Hypertension, Psoriasis

I’ll let you know if anything changes or I think up anything else which might be relevant!

Weekends

Weekends

Sometimes it feels like the weekend didn’t work. That’s a strange statement I know, but for me the weekend is about being refreshed and ready to face┬áthe week ahead, and sometimes it just doesn’t feel like I’m quite there. Sunday night comes and it’s time to go to bed before work tomorrow, but I know that if I do then Monday will be upon me.

I’m not sure why I feel like this though, sometimes it makes sense, if I have had a busy weekend and not really had time to myself then I will want time alone and not want to face people at work and on public transport. Or if I have a big job on Monday and I’m not sure what I’m meant to be doing, then I feel nervous about the day ahead. Other times though it’s like today, I had a busy day yesterday but I’ve relaxed today, I’m not on a job tomorrow so there is no pressure on me either, yet I am still worried about going in to work tomorrow. Sometimes it is harder not having a set task to do though I guess, means I have to think for myself and when my head is spinning that isn’t easy.

Think I’m just going to have to go to bed and hope I feel up to it in the morning, I’m out of sick days and I can’t really afford to take more days as holiday or lose the pay. I guess I’ll have to just get through it, sometimes that’s hard though.